I think it's finally hit me that my friend has gone. I'm overwhelmed by grief and can't stop crying this morning. It's come as a total shock as I have managed to hold myself together for the past fortnight. Doesn't help that I dreamt that Marian is alive last night and it had all been one huge mistake. Dreams are bizarre aren't they and don't always make sense. Marian's funeral will be held on Monday and her wonderful daughter has asked if I'd like to help set up the church hall for her wake. Bless them, in the midst of their own grief they have included me in this last thing we can do for Marian.
Heartfelt sympathy for you Cherie. I know it's not much help, but try to focus on your good memories of Marian, I'm sure you have many. Her daughter obviously thinks the world of you too. xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Sooze. It's been a bit of an emotional day today.
DeleteIf it's any help, I found the two week mark was also when my real grief kicked in over the deaths of both my husband and my father. I thought I was okay for those first two weeks but then the finality of their deaths kicked in. Wishing you strength as you cope with this grief. I am sure Marian's family are comforted by having your help in what you have so lovingly called "this last thing" you all are doing for her. Hugs xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Jenny. Xx
DeleteGrief hits in the most unexpected moments. Sending lot of love, Cherie. Xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Jules. It's very much appreciated.
DeleteDealing with the sadness of losing your best friend must be so hard and grief hits at the most unexpected times. Each day will be different, some bad and some good. Hold tight to those precious memories. I do hope that Marian's bungalow stays in her family and that it has a happy future with her daughter.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you this week x
Thank you. I think Monday will be very difficult for us all and I am not looking forward to it at all. Xx
DeleteSending hugs. I've found that grief can hit you at strange moments. Just when you think you're doing better, it all hits you again.
ReplyDeleteThanks Sharon. You are so right. Xx
DeleteThinking of you at this difficult time. That is good that her daughter and you can support each other in your grief. Regards Sue H
ReplyDeleteThanks Sue. Marian's daughter is a lovely person and I think she'll become a friend.
DeleteI'm so sorry. Sending hugs and prayers.
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